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Jun. 3rd, 2007 | 05:39 pm
music: it's old but whatever

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end

and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

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she says shes no good with words but i'm worse

May. 7th, 2007 | 11:53 am
mood: pessimistic pessimistic
music: fob, obviously

can someone please explain to me why i don't care about anything anymore?

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hit em up style

Apr. 26th, 2007 | 12:54 pm
music: blu cantrell

So. I lost my job because I overslept. It’s not all my fault, but I don’t want to get into it. I felt sick last night too, it just sucks because I’ve never done anything like that before. It’s not all that bad I guess since I’m still working on Tuesday, and clearing Thursday up gives me a day during the week to do community service at JASC. It just sucks that I basically lost 200some dollars.

Tuesday was fun. Work from 9am-1pm, Class from 130-445pm. Then Bulls game, stayed at Prats’ house later that night. Spent the night there and went to school 9am the next morning. The Bulls killed it, and I bought a Tyrus Thomas shirt. One of the best games of my life.

All my shirts/jerseys are #24. Kobe. Crede. Tyrus... Cool with me.

Prats is gone for the next 2 years. That makes me sad.

Can’t wait to go to a Sox game<333

I’m sick. I have like clammy, cold sweats or something and a bloated stomach.

Speaking of bloated, I started working out at Oak Forest Pd. It’s lame, but whatever. I plan on going 2-3 times a week. I need to chill out though because I’m one of the luckier people that works out to shave off 5-some pounds instead of having a huge weight problem.

I spent too much money, and now I sorta lost my job so it sucks. I’m applying at a bunch of places for the summer, maybe I can get the internship I signed up for. I’m basically just doing this to make up for feeling like a huge bum.

Well… That’s all that’s been going on with me.

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draw a house! or pig!

Feb. 22nd, 2007 | 05:15 pm

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tired.

Feb. 16th, 2007 | 07:53 pm
music: the show juvies.

i love shopping for spring/summer. it's probably my favorite thing in the whole world.

things b/t me and john have been really complicated. the past few days have been awful, we don't get along anymore, all we do is argue, and he lies to me so it's hard to believe anything he says. plus, we don't even hang out anymore because he's so busy with work. and when i do hang out with him, i feel like a parasite. anyways. i'm really hungry because my parents don't feed me anymore, i never have any money because i buy my own books and food now. school is really stressful. my job bores me. i dunno. just everything sucks. except for shopping. it's still the best. IM me if u want to shop with me in the next few days, you're invited.

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Feb. 14th, 2007 | 11:40 pm

i hate valentine's day.

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i guess i'll give it a shot

Feb. 11th, 2007 | 02:34 am

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 3 sentences on your blog along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.

"For now. But I wouldn't be if I thought this was the end of the evening."
When I was 17, I used to lie awake at night hoping women would say things like that to me; now, it just brings back the panic.
"I'm sure it isn't."

high fidelity. nick hornby.

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i consider these results awful

Feb. 3rd, 2007 | 06:46 pm

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||| 50%
Stability |||||||||| 33%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 60%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||| 30%
Intellectual |||||||||||| 43%
Mystical || 10%
Artistic |||||||||||||| 56%
Religious |||||| 23%
Hedonism |||| 16%
Materialism |||||||||| 36%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 50%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 70%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 43%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||| 30%
Dependency |||||||||||| 43%
Change averse |||||| 30%
Cautiousness |||||||||||| 50%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||||| 64%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 63%
Vanity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
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dreamer

Jan. 29th, 2007 | 09:47 pm
music: whatever man!

things i bought/am getting laterCollapse )

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this is a brand new day starting now ,i let go the things that weigh me down

Jan. 15th, 2007 | 11:49 pm
music: my bf playing gears

things i got for my birthday:

from nikki:
PINK white terry cloth robe from victoria's secret
earrings and umbrella from h&m

from mom and dad:
money
black velvet boots from victoria's secret
black studded heels from victoria's secret

from will:
zombie book, i think it's called ww3

from rose and jeff (johnny's parents):
$25 red lobster

from aunt nancy:
$25 AMC theaters, candy, and cute doggy keychain thing

from bf:
flower, card, candy
lakers (kobe bryant #24) pink fashion jersey
&
something else i don't know what yet b/c it hasn't come in the mail

it was a very sweet low-key birthday. i didn't invite that many people because i wanted it to be kinda a small thing (my bf, zach, b, will, nikki, rose). i had a great time, i felt really special which doesn't happen often hehe and today was a sweet 1 year anniversary with my bf. we had dinner and then hung out at my house. i have tomorrow off, so whoever is still home/wants to hang out, i'm up for grabs!! hehe.

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